wake up wake up!

i m having weird feelings tis few days. OMFG! no no no. i should stop thinking. cum on, wake up NG WAN NEE. open ur eyes big big n c properly, n think. always bear in mind tat wat is rite n wrong, should n shouldnt. don let the wrong past happens again. *breath in, breath out. ok, everything wil b fine. stop pondering. focus on study. bye bye! xD

forever in my heart

today's date- 29 June, is the day the person i love left me n gone to a far far place tat i can never c. its my wai po. wai po, although u had gone for 5 years, i can stil rmb hw u look like n oso our memories. when i was young, u like to treat me ice cream. u never beat me or even scold me. i knw tat u love me too as hw much i love u. wats the thing tat i like the most about u is u never tease me like hw ah yi they all used to. ah yi they all always tease me fat, fat n fat. u wil scold them if they did tat. =) tats great. haha.. u wil comfort me when i don feel well n giv me wat i wan. wai po, thx a lot. i love u~ i miss u too.. sumtimes i even hope tat v can meet more often. i mean in my dream. xD n.. at here, i hope u wil hav a peaceful life there. in my heart, the image of u wil never disappear. on tis vry stressful day, the candle of my life said tat she hav to leave. =( i feel vry sad bt i cant do anything. my tears were jux dripping. she said she nid to change her living environment. yea, ppl should change their pathway after being so long on the same one to improve themselves or to move on wit a better life. her words make me feel tat mayb it wil b gud for her if she leave. anyway, i m vry thankful to her for being the candle tat burn herself jux to lighten my life. she gave me many knowledge. she made me fall in love wit the thing tat i don bt i should. she oso tried her best to make me understand wat i don. i promise tat i wil do my best for my next challenge. eventhough she wil b leaving me vry soon n might nt hav the chance to guide me anymore, i wil do it all by myself. its time to b independent. lastly, i feel guilty n sorry as sumtimes, i did make her disappointed. i wish her gud luck in her future n live happily wit her love ones. ^^

Anthony Promo Tour

*ps for the outdated post. too busy recently. xD

Date: 25/6/2011
Time: 2p.m.
Venue: Klang Parade

sry for the blur pic. cant get close pic of him as v r nt allowed to go near him except for those VIP oly T.T. ahhah! lets talk bout anthony. anthony went up stage at around 2.30pm. the first song he sang was SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU. aww.. so touching. i almost cried. next song was wit his best fren, the guitar. cant reli hear coz of the PA system prob. lastly was 散場的擁抱! tis song gt the most applause. conclusion, anthony is great! his voice melted my heart. he sang wit his soul put inside the song. oh anthony, i love u!!! =D thx for dedicating such sweet songs. btw, sry coz din buy ur album. i hav no money at the moment =( missed the chance to shake hand wit u. sobs~ hope there wil b another chance to meet u. hav a nice day, stalker! =)

learn frm mistake

i had knw clearly wat u mean. anyway, thx for saying the truth. although its nt a gud decision, i stil respect ur choice. well, seriously to b say, i think u misunderstand me d. u said i did things diff as wat i said? u r totally wrong. to u, i never. jux tat time, i did. mayb coz i m 'drunk'. tats the oly thing tat i had betrayed u for once. n shes nt reli my best fren bt u r. i din tel her my everything. sumtimes i ignored her bcoz of u. i m so sry to *her*. i m kinda stupid as i cant make my own decision. i jux listen to u. i too rely on u liao. frm today onwards, the world wil change. my life wil too. after tis incident, i m awake. i learnt to differentiate dream n reality. mayb u r jux my dream. my dream fren tat oly appears in my life for a while. once i woke up, everything wil vanish in a flip of second. anyway, thx for giving me so many memories. i wil always rmb them. perhaps v reli should walk in our own ways liao. god bless us. smile for a better day =) nites~

[MV/HQ] Bii - 轉身之後 Zhuan Shen Zhi Hou

I am so sorry~

i did smtg tat spoilt everything. i broke my promise to u. yes! its my fault. all my fault. bt would u ever listen to my explaination n try to understand me? u never. u reli did smtg tat make my temper went to the max bt i jux pretend tat i m fine in front of u. i cant stand it actually. so, i went crazy n accidentally said it out. i reli don mean anything after all. i jux cant control myself. u hurt me again n again. n finally, my patience reached its limit. u said tat u shed ur tears for the first time bcoz of me. well, did u knw tat i cried 10 times more? theres lot of things tat u dono. sumtimes u hurt me bt i jux keep quiet. keep it all inside my heart. crying alone at the corner wit my teddy bear for comfort. or even hoping tat the wall wil tok to me. n yet, tis is jux the first time i hurt u. n oso its an accident. nt purposely. i hav no idea wat should i do anymore without u by my side. the journey bhind gonna b hard i think? n v promised each other to b frens until the rest of the life. yes, u broke ur promise coz i broke my promise too. rite? sumhow, u never realised hw much important the presence of u in my life. u r jux a vry special fren for me. nw, its over. i wont hav the chance to eat ice cream wit u, laugh crazily tgt n loitering at the pasar malam wit u anymore. its reli a sad thing. i m jux vry wrong. hw can i did tis to u? i knw it oso, i shouldnt. however, theres no use regretting nw. i cant turn the time back. plus, based on ur attitude, i knw u wil hate me vry much. u wil never try to look at the other side of hw much i had been patient wit wat u said n did. as i used to hav deep feelings on u. i admit. so nw, everything wil change. i knw no matter wat i say or explain or even beg u n cry in front of u, u wont pity me. tis is u. once sumone did smtg wrong to u, u wil rmb it forever. ''anything'', ''watever'', tis is the answer tat i gt. i knw wat it means d. u wont care wat i say anymore coz u r so frustrated liao. for me, its a suffering word. i gt no ways wat should i do so tat u wil forgiv me n giv me another chance. i giv up. i don wan to bt u make me hav to. i shouldnt let my mood affect my study, my parents wil b vry disappointed on me. SORRY. i m so sorry to u. although v r nt so close as u said, i stil vry care on our frenship. its ok if u wan to end our frenship here. as long as u feel better, everything wil do. nvm, i used to lost many frens liao. well, life turns around- upside down, frens r the same too. bt, if i m given a second chance to b a fren of u again in the next life, i swear, i wont do the same mistake anymore. i hav to b strong frm nw onwards. don ever let the wind to blow me down. i guess, i reli hav to try living without u. live bravely. its time to grow up. at last, sori again.

倪安東 - 散場的擁抱 (HQ官方版MV)

hahaha

today i ki siao liao. xD its a tiring day yet fun! although today's schedule is vry 'pek' but i enjoy all the classes coz i understand almost everything? =D time to show my sot sot pic~



i look so nerd ==

do u c my mole? haha!

aww... hes my ♥

gonna stop here. =)

WHY?!!!

today i din go skul. i wasnt feeling gud after all. upon i woke up, i can feel smtg wrong. smtg gonna happen if i go skul. i slept til 9am n had heachache. my body was feeling pain too. i m nt hapi. since ytd. don u understand me?! u should! when i said i hate u, wil it reli meant? u knw it rite? i dono wat happened to u bt y cant u control urself? u put ur anger on me n yes! u won! u totally broke my heart. i thought v r best frens? bt it seems tat u don treat me tat way. den wat m i to u? i treated u vry vry gud as my bestie. or even more than tat. u like don even treat me as anything oso, i think? i never spent my sweet saturday teaching my ordinary fren. u r the first. means, u r nt ordinary! u r my best fren. close fren. i wil always try to help u whenever u nid me. i wil, u should knw rite? bt WHY?! u asked me to ignore u? wat do u mean? u knw i wont. i feel reli sad wit the way u replied me. u r nt u anymore. hu r u? n sumtimes i can even feel tat u stil don reli trust me. mayb coz ppl around u r fake so u think i m fake too. T.T i m a real person! u asked me to let u off for smtg.. i did. i reli did. bt if as fren, no way. i wil never. i wil always hold u tight although u r like a balloon tat wil probably fly away when strong wind cum. perhaps u reli flied away, i wil jump to get u even though theres a sea rite in front of me. u wil never knw hw much i appreciate my fren. watever it is, i accepted tat u said i m nt u best fren. nvm. for u, i m nt. bt for me, u r always. its hurt bt i already used to it. i m tough =) i blif tat tomoro wil b a better day. hope ur probs can b solved asap. i wil help if u nid me. chaoz~ 

its a must

sunday, sunny day. it rained a while jux nw, few drops. jux back frm uncle house after went for a walk at aeon. on the way back, i put on my earphone n listen to some songs. those songs remind me of many things n makes me think lots. i was thinking, its my 2nd week of holiday d bt i seem to hav did ntg. so, i should make a plan. 1.study 2.diet 3.let go n forget. OMG OMG OMG. 3 more months to my trial! i haven revise anything yet =X D.I.E. tomoro, i must open at least one book. diet? ARG! i semakin hari semakin gemuk. =( no more nice shirt for me ler. sobs.. i should stop eating liao. its a tough challenge to lose weight coz i love eating. however, i reli gt to try controlling my diet frm nw onwards. lastly, let go n forget. yes! i hav to do tis. it wil b making me suffer bt i nid to. let go n forget earlier is better than getting heartbroke at the end, rite? i m letting go d. i swear. by the sun, moon n stars. xDD