totally lost

after wat had happened, i m lost. reli lost. i dono where should i go. i m no one anymore. ntg. i cant talk properly. smile sweetly. or even hav my meal happily. i lost my appetite, cant pay attention in class n always feel tired. i don hav the joyful feeling to go skul anymore. it seems tat the world looks diff nw. i m like a soulless, soft-hearted living creature. u can jux easily crash my heart into pieces. n, perhaps, i might jux cry out suddenly. although they r jux small matters. i m no longer cheerful. i seriously forget hw should i mix up wit my frens. theres ntg in my mind. ntg. its blank! y tis happens to me? sumhow, important ppl around me jux gone one by one. they don understand the true side of me. wat they knw actually? i m confused. wat should i do? i fell. i raised my white flag. i hav no strength to accept the fact. sry everyone. i nid time.